Life can change in an instant.
There’s no easy way to say it…..we lost our baby. It might seem strange, but I don’t have any questions about what happened. I never think about what might have been. As a family, we know everything happens for a reason and we are at peace with our loss. Boo is comforted that our baby is with Grandpa in heaven now keeping him company. We move forward and appreciate each other, our family, our health and many other blessings we have.
I’m feeling weaker than normal and it’s taking me longer than I thought to physically recuperate. I’m trying to be good and rest but that’s the hardest thing for me to do….my instincts are to jump up and do something awesome and fun.
Yesterday, I opened up some mail from my mother and she had included a photocopy from a book based on scripture that was eerily perfect:
“Though many things feel random and wrong, remember that I am sovereign over everything. I can fit everything into a pattern for good, but only to the extent that you trust Me. Every problem can teach you something, transforming you little by little into the masterpiece I created you to be. The very same problem can become a stumbling block over which you fall, if you react with distrust and defiance. The choice is up to you, and you will have to choose many times each day whether to trust Me or defy Me.”
I don’t have much of a timeline for my life……if it’s God’s will we’ll have a sister or brother for Boo one day soon!
I remember what my Dad would want me to do….I choose joy.
So sorry for your loss. Praying that God will continue to give you peace.
So sorry for your loss! You will be in my prayers!
I’m so sorry for you loss. I’ve been there & I know how hard it is. Keep your amazing faith. God will take care of you & your family. Prayers for you all.
Awww 🙁 it’s a hard thing to get through, take all the time you need, the loss of what could be is almost worse then the reality. All our love and if we can help you all in any way don’t hesitate to speak up.
much love and hugs,
Megzy & Tred Family
I’m so very sorry.
I’m so sorry. What a terrible thing to go through. My prayers are with you.
My life has been changed with an instant as well. I appreciate your ability to share it and I wish you the nothing but the best as you recuperate and readjust your life.
so sorry for your loss. I love and admire your attitude towards it. A friend of mine lost a baby and thought, who am i to be upset that the baby was so amazing that God just wanted to keep him/her all to himself. What a positive outlook you have. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
I am so so sorry… You are in my prayers.
I am so, so very sorry for your loss… My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family… xoxo
Praying for you and your family. I’m sorry for your loss.
I’m praying for you all. So sorry.
I’m so sorry and I’m keeping all of ya’ll in my prayers!
Praying for your sweet family: Peace and Strength. Blessings.
My heart is sad for you such a tremendous loss. Hold on to all those wonderful memories and smile every time you think of him. He would want you to be happy. Words of comfort wont comfort you as much as God will. Give him your pain and let time heal you.
Again I am so sorry for your loss. You were so blessed with the time you had with Boo.
Praying for you and your family. Amazed by your positive attitude, what a great role model you are for anyone going through something tough!
Oh Ashley, I am truly so very sorry for your loss. Shocked and saddened by this unexpected turn of events for you! I do believe though that everything does happen for a reason and I trust there are some beautiful things for you on the horizon… my prayers are with you!
I am so sorry. Keeping you in my thoughts.
Mein Beileid from Germany.
Ashley, I’m so sorry about your loss. Your family is in our thought and prayers.
What a brave thing you’ve done. To share the places where we are vulnerable and suffering you have comforted others greatly. I too lost a baby, and imagine what a grand reunion it will be someday. I’ve been doing a great bible study by Angela Thomas called Brave, and it’s shown me through scripture all of the places where God was in all the darkest places with an embrace no words could provide. God Bless Your Family 🙂
I’m so sorry for your loss. We lost our first, and I agree there is comfort in believing there is a reason. I often say it makes Heaven sweeter to me.
Ashley, Boo, and Mr. LBB,
I’m so sorry for your loss. I truly believe that you will help someone else trough their loss with your willingness to share and your openness. I look forward to your next announcement of a sibling for Boo. I love what your mother sent you. It’s so very true!
I have tears in my eyes. You are so brave to share your life so openly. The scripture your mom sent was so beautiful and I hope it gives you the peace and strength you need. You’re right, God is in charge and everything is in His time. My prayers are with you and your family. Ellen
I am so sorry for your loss and will keep you in my prayers. You know God has a plan for you and the best way to honor him is to live it.
Oh Ashley, I am sooo so sorry. Big hugs friend. I have complete confidence that God will fill your arms with a new little one very soon. Much love and prayers being sent your way. xoxo
So sorry for your loss. My God comfort you and your family.
Susan
How wonderful that you trust in God enough to be at peace with this. He will carry you through this. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Wow, what an inspiration you are to others who have or will face this situation. So very sorry for your loss and LOVE that you trust God, even through the toughest obstacles. God Bless you and your family 🙂
So sorry to hear this. Take care of yourself and feel better soon. My thoughts and prayers go to you and your family.
Oh, Ashley, I’m so sorry for your loss. I love the scripture that your mom sent, and will be sharing it with some friends who have also lost babies. You are such an inspiration to me and may God bless you, and your family.
Prayers for u all.
Saddened by your news but greatly encouraged by your post! This recently happened to my daughter also. I know your sharing will help others. God has blessed you with the gift of encouragement! Praying for your family.
Ashley, I am so sorry. Though I don’t know you personally, I feel like I do. Thank you for sharing your beautiful self with so many.
I’m so sorry for your loss, I know what it’s like, but what you wrote is so true, also remebered that verse that says we can comfrot others with the comfrot we’ve received, our stories of loss and suffering can later on encourage and help other,s God bless you and your family in this time, love from brazil
I am so sorry..there are no words at a time like this. thoughts are prayers are with you and your family!
I’m so sorry for your family’s loss. I’ve been in your shoes, so I know how hard it is. I’m glad you’re at peace with this, it took a long time for me to accept that it was God’s will. I hope you feel better soon!!! Your LBB fans love you!!
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost a baby 11 years ago and at the time had a 11yr old daughter. She was so heart broken. Three months later we were pregnant again. My husband and I decide to wait until we found out the sex of the baby to even tell anyone about being pregnant. Instead of saying we’re pregnant we said it’s a girl. Everyone was excited and couldn’t believe we had kept it in. One year later we decided to do it again. It’s a girl! everyone always tells stories about us waiting.
Just have faith that it wasn’t meant to be! Your Dad needed someone to look over. It will be! Boo is meant to be a big sister, and you a Mom.
I am so, so sorry to hear this. I had a miscarriage earlier this summer, at a little over 9 weeks along. My heart is breaking for you and your family. Allow yourself time to rest, grieve and heal.
Hi Ashley, I am so very sorry for your loss. You are right, everything does happen for a reason. I lost a twin son at 13-months old, he had birth defects and we never got to bring him home from the hospital. I feel your pain. I pray you regain strength as the days go by and peace and comfort to follow. Take care, ♥ Glenna
I’m so sorry! We, too, lost a baby between our 1st and 2nd children. We now have a full (and LOUD) house of 4. Wishing you peace – and strength.
I am so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine. Thank you for sharing your story, I know that it will help someone else.
Praying for your family.
I’m so sorry. I know it’s devastating bc we lost our baby in 2008. I believe everything happens for a reason. God has a plan. I understand a little bit now where our loss fits into His plan but it still hurts. I will pray for you & your family. God bless.
my cousin was pregnant back when i was pregnant and lossed her baby when she was 13 weeks along. she was heartbroken. i didnt know what to do cause i was still pregnent and i kind of felt like me being pregnent was adding to her loss so it was a bit of a emotional rollercoaster for me: happy i was pregnant and we were both healthy, but sad for her loss and the indirect pain i may be causing her. but she kept asking about my pregnancy and how i was doing and my baby and when my daughter was born, she asked about her all the time. one day i told her i felt bad talking about my gift from god because she lossed hers. [now, i must say my cousin is a very relious person, her father is a pastor. so this next part shouldnt have surprised me, but it did, and i thought id share it with you.] after i told her my concerns, she rebounded quickly and very upbeat with “oh dont feel bad! i didnt lose my baby!” [naturally i was confused] “god just thought my baby wasnt quite perfect enough and took him back for a short while to add the final touches!” 8 months later she told me she was 6 months pregnant and that i was the first person she was telling about her “new” pregnancy. 3 months later baby carter was born and he really is very perfect, just as god made him…and touched up…and sent back to my cousin. 🙂 hes 7 months old now and very sweet. 🙂 so, no worries, god just decided he wanted your lil one to be EXTRA special and even more perfect for you. 😀
I am going to share this with my son and daughter in law who just lost their baby at 11 weeks. Thanks for sharing. Sue
We had a family member who lost their baby at 24 weeks…. what a wonderful thought.
(I hit send too quickly.)
To think that way, it’s quite comforting.
I’m so sorry for your loss, but greatly admire your strength and positive attitude! God bless you and your family.
I’m so sorry, Ashley.
I’m incredibly sorry for your loss 🙁
I am sorry for your loss. Take care, and try to rest up.
I am so sorry for your lost. I will be praying for you and your family.
I am very sorry for your loss. It sounds like your know where to turn for strength though–family and God. God grants a peace that passes all understanding even in our most difficult times. He is the only thing that got me through my two miscarriages. Thank you for sharing your story. I know you will touch many hearts with it. You have touched mine today. Sending prayers and love your way. Take care.
I’m sorry for you and your family’s loss. May you never give up hope.
Ashley, my prayers will be with you and your family. I hate to hear that you are going through this.. I’m not going to pretend I know what you are going through.. the scripture your mom sent to you, was very uplifting. By reading your blog, it appears you have an amazing family, and that helps us get through these difficult times, along with spending quiet times with God. Please don’t try to recover too quickly.. take some time for yourself and get plenty of rest…
At age 34, I had two miscarriages, one at 14 weeks and another at 9 weeks… However, 2 years later, God blessed us with Audrey, which oddly enough, the doctor said she was conceived on the day, our first miscarriage was due. I wasn’t trying for that date.
Blessings… Tammy
I’ve walked that path more times than I care to count. I know it’s difficult, at least your family has comfort in knowing where your child is, and has a good focus to enjoy what you do have right now. Take care, get plenty of rest, and know that my family is praying for yours.
My heart hurts for you and your family. Sorry for your loss.
I am so very sorry for your lost.
I am nt that much into praying, but I am really feeling with you, so dearly.
And I am so keeping my fingers crossed for you, that you will be blessed with a little sister or brother for Boo.
I am very impressed by your strength, and I am wishing even more of that.
Take care of you,
You big fan
Dorothee
(who wishes she could do more than just write these words.)
….wishing you even more of that…
The beauty and eloquence you speak of your faith and Gods wish is breathtaking after such a heartbreaking moment. Blessings to you and yours.
So sorry for your loss..my prayers are with you and your family. Wishing you peace.
praying for you and your family in your time of loss. i am so, so sorry.
I wish I could give you a hug……. I’m so sorry.
Sending happy thoughts and wishes. I am sorry for your loss but so moved by your thoughts and feelings. There is a plan whether we can understand it or not but still must see the beauty and enjoyment in it which you guys seemingly manage to do, which is magical. Keeping my fingers crossed! 🙂
I am very sorry for your loss. We’ve been through that several times and each one hurts. I admire your strength and will be praying for you and yoru family.
Ashley, I’m praying for you! My thoughts are with you and the fam. Love.
I’m sorry for your loss. Praying for you all.
So sorry for your loss, I know what you are going through! If you ever want to talk…
Prayers to you and your family
Sorry for your loss, Praying that God sends you peace and joy.
Take care.
Grieving and rejoicing with you during this time. Our 7 week old granddaughter, Lynleigh, died from SIDS recently and we understand the peace. Her short life has impacted so many, most for the good. a few for the bad. I would hate to know I could not see the good of her sweet, sweet little life.
I am so sorry for your loss, can’t imagine what you are going through, lots of love from us. Be strong.
Awwwww, Ashley, SO sorry for your loss. I know this is a difficult time We had a loss between Savannah and Matilda and it was one of the hardest things ever. Your attitude is wonderful and yes, you WILL have another little one. Just take some time to grieve and heal. Prayers are with you all.
Lindsay
So terribly sorry for your loss. I will be rhinkig about you and your family.
I hope you dance again soon.
Peace.
-denise
You are so brave… Your openess, honesty courage ARE inspiring. Than you. You and your family are in my prayers. Take care and rest.
Ashley,
I am so sorry for your loss. I’ve had several close friends lose babies this way lately, and it’s so hard to deal with all the questions, the hurt, and the seemingly endless boneheaded things people sometimes say. I will be praying for you and your family as you seek to choose joy in all things. I think that is an incredibly brave choice, and I pray that I would be able to choose the same in your shoes.
Blessings on you and your family.
Ashley, Mr. LBB and Boo,
I am truly sorry for your loss. You have chosen to share a part of your life with us and I am sure that your wonderful outlook on life will help others through their journey. Continue to always choose joy, even when it seems the more difficult choice!
Victoria
I am so very sorry for you and your family. Words can’t adequately express feelings in times like these and all we can say is that we’re so sorry. ((hugs))
Ashley so sorry for your loss. Hugs to you and your family. You are a true inspiration to others. I am always amazed by the choices you make and the happiness you can bring to others even when you are the one who is hurting.
I’m so, so sorry.
Thank you so much for sharing. I am saddened by your loss and touched by your attitude. God is in control and trusting Him is a beautiful thing. Remember he knows the number of hairs on your head and you ARE in His hands.
Hugs and blessings to you and your family.
It sounds like you have awesome parents and know that your dad being the first one to hold that sweet little baby may bring you peace and comfort during this time. Boo is so adorable and smart and with God’s time you will have another little one just like her! Praying for you and your family!
I’m so sorry to hear your news, but I greatly admire your attitude to choose joy. I hope you are able to get the rest you need.
I am so sorry for your loss but God will bring you through this and I am so glad he has given you peace about it. He has a plan for our lives and we have to trust that. Your mom is such a godly woman and so glad she can give you such great counsel. Thank you for being brave enough to share with us. Your positive attitude and willingness to trust God will speak to many that are going through a tough time.
I am sorry for your loss. I have also been there and olthough there might be a reason, there is still grief. I hope you will recover soon!
Take care
I am so sorry for the loss of your baby. I’ll be praying for you and your hubby as you grieve. Thank you for sharing so we can pray!
Ashley
Though I don’t know you, I so so sorry for your loss. And though I don’t believe God always has a plan when bad things happen and that things happen for a reason, I know – know – know – that He can turn everything to the better. I will be praying for you and your family. Tone
I am so sorry for your loss. You are such an incredible person and have such a wonderful family. I admire you for the choices you make. I hope you are able to rest and recover. We will be thinking about you and your family.
Amber
Ashley,
My prayers are with you this very moment. I can only imagine that after a loss your emotions volley from sadness to hope at any given time. Thank you for sharing your life and your heart with us. I so enjoy checking in everyday.
*Hugs* from East Texas.
~Kirsten
Ashley, praying for you and your family! We have had a tough year as well, and are doing our best to “choose joy”! I thank you for your honesty in the good and the bad! I’m soooo glad Monica told me about you and your company.
I’m sorry honey. Big hugs.
I just ran across your blog, and it’s so a God-thing, because I just lost our baby this last week too. It was our 5th to lose–we have one little 2.5 year old boy. Just wanted to encourage you that you’re not alone in your pain–other women out there feel just like you! and sweet Jesus is there holding you just like he is me here :). Praying for your heart and body to heal.
Bless you and your family,
Michelle Steele 🙂
I am so sorry for you and your family’s loss. You have such an amazing outlook on life 😉 Choosing Joy is such a wonderful place to be. Continue to be held tight by your family and friends.
Thinking of you xoxoxo
I’m so sorry. Take care of yourself and take the time you need. All of those things you are tempted to do will be there tomorrow.
Keeping you and your family in my prayers.
I am so sorry for your loss Ashley. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. ((Hugs))
I’m so sorry.
I am so sorry for your loss. My heart is heavy with your hurt. I am reminded that in our church, during the Lord’s supper, our priest says “Do this in re membrance of me.” Because as she says every time we come together as one we take away each other’s joys and sorrows. Please realize you are not alone and many of us carry you through this until you are ready to walk amongst us again. We will be there for you.
Ashley, you are such a blessing to others! Your outlook on life is outstanding!! May God continue to bless you and your family!
So sorry for you lose. I understand that pain but have since seen God’s miracle in the birth of my now almost 9 year old. Thank you for sharing the scripture, it is refreshing.
My heart goes out to you. I lost a little girl at 21 weeks, and it is a hard situation for people to know exactly how to react to the loss. My thoughts are with you!
xo! My heart & prayers are with you and your dear family.
Hugs to you and your family Ashley. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Love you to pieces.
I am so sorry for your loss my God hold you close and heal your heart
Ashley
I am sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
So sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
I am so sorry for your loss. My son and daughter in law just lost their baby 2 weeks ago, she was 11 weeks. Keep the faith. Sue
Ashley, I am so sorry for your loss, sending prayers your way. I admire your spirit!
Prayers and thoughts go out to you and yours…Reember there is a reason for everything and in this case the Good Lord maybe the only one to know why…But it is also said that he does not give us more than we can handle.
I am so sorry for your loss. I, too, had to walk this valley 21 months ago. It is a hard journey, but cling to the Lord. He will never leave you or forsake you.
Karen
I’m so sorry. We’ve shared a very difficult summer, you and I.
I am so fortunate to have stumbled onto your site. You are so generous with your time and your spirit; it’s real gift. Be gentle with yourself. Your strength will return on its own schedule.
Prayers and hugs.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I too know how difficult it is to go through. I’ve been there!!!
Hang in there!! Saying prayers for you and your family! Hugs
Ashley I am so very sorry for your loss.
I’m so sorry. As I’m reading this I have tears in my eyes. We had so many problems having babies that it instantly takes me back there when I hear something like this. I wish I had something perfect to say but I don’t think is such a thing. Thinking of you and your family.
Rebecca
I’m so sorry. You guys sure are having a rough, heartbreaking time.
I know nothing will ever fill those 2 voids, but I do believe there’s at least good around the corner for you all. Hope you find some comfort and peace in everything. I, too, admire your outlook. Praying some happy things and fun times come your way soon.
Ashley, You are a very brave girl. I am so sorry to hear of your love. Peace and joy to your family.
I want you to know I cried for you today. I don’t know you. I created my blog because I have been through what you are going through. I understand. I am amazed at how you have such a wonderful outlook. You have strength. I admire that.
God DOES give us a calm at just the right time, doesn’t he? Praying He continues to provide comfort and strength to you all.
My thoughts are with you and your family.
my deepest sympathy for your loss….
Ashley- big hugs. I’m so sorry. 🙁
Oh, Ashley, I’m so sorry. I know it is difficult, but you are handling yourself in a positive manner, which is all you can really do in these situations. I agree with your outlook that it wasn’t meant to be, and I would add it usually means something wonderful is in store for you. It does no good to think about what might have been, but rather how things are and what may be in store for the future. I admire your resilience. No need to respond to this. I know you’re overwhelmed with it all and would rather focus on other things. Just know that we are all out here thinking of you and sending you good vibes. Hang in there.
Sorry for your loss, I’ll be praying for you and your family be able to alleviate this pain, strength, ask God’s comfort and peace.
Fraternal embrace everyone.
I am so, so sorry. I think you are brave and gracious to share your story because it can help other women. In May, I lost my second child at 14 weeks and found it immensely comforting to write about it. Love and prayers for you!
Oh Ashley, I am so sorry. But you are right, God has a plan and if Boo is meant to have a baby brother or sister, she will…in time…she will. Sending you lots of hugs and good vibes from my home to yours.
I feel like hugging you now, sorry for the loss ashley. rest well dear. I know how much pain it cause coz i’ve been thru it too. *hugggs*
“Sometimes love lasts a moment.
Sometimes love lasts a lifetime.
Sometimes a moment is a lifetime.”
I am so sorry for the loss that your family is experiencing and I can in no way say that I can understand what you are feeling. I do pray that you will continue to trust God and lean on Him. I pray for comfort for you and your family.
Hi,
I’m a very new reader of your blog (which I am enjoying so much). Just wanted to reach out and tell you how very sorry I am for your loss. Blessings to you and your family.
I feel for you–having lost 3 and adopted 3, I am keeping you in prayer. Your faith WILL sustain you and your attitude seems so much in His will. Keeping you in prayer….
I’m soo sorry for your loss. IT is very hard i now have 5 angels babies
My prayers are with you and your family
Michelle
Thank you for sharing your life with us. It may be though your writing that you are able to find strength and hope. Your faith is an inspiration to me and so many others. Thank you again.
I’ve walked with many friends through the loss of a pregnancy – and while each experience is different and I know I cannot imagine your specific pain – I know the loss is real and heartbreaking. So great that you are choosing to choose joy. I will keep you and your family in my prayers – especially that you can feel truly lifted up and surrounded in love during this time. Thank you for being encouraging and inspiring during your difficult times.
I am very sorry for your loss. I’ve been out of the blog loop because my mom passed away two months ago. I just read about your dad’s passing and wanted to express my deepest condolences to you. I bawled while reading about his passing, he sounds like an amazing person.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my first baby years ago and it was hard. Jennifer lost several and the only thing to do is what you are doing and that is trusting God and choosing joy. Take care of yourself and get lots of hugs. Love will bring you back to health and know we are with you in thoughts and prayers. Love to all…….
Judy and Don
I’m so sorry for your loss but you have an amazing faith and attitude. The note your mother sent you yesterday was such a message… God Bless and may you have many lovely siblings for Boo!
Susan
Ashley,
So sorry to hear of your loss, I have had 2 now. I lost one after my daughter and then we just lost another one this past October when my son was 1. When I had to tell people about it, I always felt so heartless because I knew in my heart it happened for a reason so I couldn’t dwell on it and be sad about it. Don’t get me wrong I was sad when I found out at the doctor’s but then that was it, time to move on and focus on the 2 kiddos I do have. My kids still ask about the last one, my daughter wants to know what happen to her baby sister (I wasn’t far enough along to know the sex) and we too tell them that the baby is in heaven with their Grandpa’s (my husband and I have both lost our fathers) that seems to make them happy. Maybe some day we will make our family of 4 a family of 5 but for now I’m so tired running after a 4 and 2 year old all day! Keeping you all in our prayers.
Wishing you peace and love. Your family is in my prayers 🙂
so sorry.
It is very generous of you to share your story while you are going thru a difficult time. It really might help a woman who is going thru a similar situation. Women tend to think there is something wrong with them when baby making doesn’t go right….but after many bumps in the road myself, I’ve come to realize that nature has a mind of its own and what a true miracle having a baby really is…makes us appreciate life a little more. Best wishes on your recovery.
SO SORRY! It is good to know that Grandpa is waiting in Heaven to meet your little angel! Praying for your family!
We recently went through a loss also. It is heartbreaking but comforting to know that God has a plan. Saying a prayer for you and your family.
I’m so sorry for your loss, wishing you peace at this difficult time. Hope that you’ll be feeling better soon. You and your family are in my thoughts.
I am so sorry. What an example you are to everyone, but most importantly to boo, that you are choosing this moment to be teachable. I’ll be praying for you all.
I’m so sorry for your loss. (((gentle, warm hugs)))
Ashley, I know how you are feeling. My mum lost several babies as I was growing up as well. Give yourself all the time that you need, and try to rest, even though you may find it hard at times. Mum did as well, but she often found things that were awesome and fun to do while sitting down. I hope that you will read this and find some comfort, if not from my message, but from one of the many others.
Here is a scripture that I often find comforting:
‘ And He will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.’ Revelation 21:4
Some others that help are Psalm 34:18, Matthew 5:4, and Isaiah 40:11.
I will be thinking of you, and praying for you and your family.
May Jehovah bless you and your family.
I’m sorry, Ashley. Words can not do much to heal your pain, but please know I am thinking about you and praying for you. Your strength and positive outlook is inspiring! <3
So sorry to hear of your loss. I went through the same thing last year at this time. It’s such a comfort to have our trust in our God and His perfect plan! Praying you recover quickly!
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I know sharing your story is not easy and so hard to do. I mis-carried at 9 weeks with my very first baby and I to believe that everything happens for a reason. Praying for you and your family.
I’m so sorry to hear of your families loss. God has a divine plan for all of you and in time it will all be revieled. Your positive outlook is inspiring! Choose Joy in all things!
Praying for you and your family.
Kelly
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep you and Boo and Mr LBB in my prayers.
My heart reaches out to you. I haven’t been in your shoes. I wouldn’t know what to say. But maybe it’s comforting in some way to have someone be there, even if they’re quiet.
Oh Ashley, I am so sorry to hear of this. I’m so sorry for all the pain that you have had to endear these past few months. I wish I could take everything away and make it all better. I will pray for your healing. I am thankful that you have such a supportive family helping you through all of this.
Ashley,
I have an AMAZING 15 month old and was ECSTATIC to find out we were expecting number 2, I surprised my hubby on Fathers Day w/the news and 3 weeks ago I lost the baby at 10 wks on Family weekend when ALL my relatives were staying over my place! I lost the baby at 3am and NOBODY knew I was prego yet (as I was still prepping the “We’re Expecting” postcards to be sent out) My hubby and I kept it to ourselves so not to ruin the LAST day of family weekend and passed off my fatigue as “cramps”. It was SO hard but my STRONG faith in God and KNOWING that EVERYTHING happens for a reason is what has gotten me thru and allowed me to keep in good spirits! Like you I’m ALWAYS busy but getting that rest is KEY & helps the healing process. Continue to choose joy and love on that precious little girl you have until you & hubby are ready to try again! I STILL don’t understand why, but God’s ways are NOT man’s ways, and we will NEVER understand his infinite mind so don’t stress trying! He loves us more than anything & this test has now given you a testimony to share with someone else! Your joy, as mine has done, DESPITE loss is a testimony all its own! You’re ALREADY encouraging others! Who knows maybe next time around we’ll both get TWINS!!
Much Love, Joy, & Happiness!
Christina
(keep smiling, it releases good endorphins that are good for the soul!)
P.S. My midwife was PLEASANTLY surprised to see how well I was taking my loss and told me she’s found that ppl w/faith tend to recover QUICKER than others! Stay strong & don’t let this alter your faith!
Oh, I choose Joy for you too. You and boo bring my so much joy and peace. May that shine right back at you. I am sorry for your loss. <3 kathy
My heart truly goes out to you all.
You are so inspiring! I’m so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you & your family!
I’m thinking of you and your family. I’m sorry for your loss and pray for better days.
Oh, Ashley, I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. Your strong faith will get you through this. I’m sending huge hugs and love to you, and your family tonight.
Ashley,
I’m sorry to read about your loss. Thank you for sharing your feelings and the words your mom sent to you. I needed to read that today as I have my trials to bear as well and was strengthened by your story. I pray for continued strength and blessings for you and your family.
I’m so sorry, Ashley. You and your family are in my thoughts.
Oh Ashley,
You know how I’ve been dealing with another friend and their recent loss lately and it’s amazingly heartbreaking yet inspirational to see how you are both able to put God first and realize the plan is not our plan.
Watching as she has strengthened day by day has been a miracle in itself.
My very first week of blogging, I announced our 3rd child, that same week, 10 1/2 weeks, I also announced our loss of our sweet baby. I struggled with wether or not to share the news online with so many people but I realized that people want to be able to pray for me and my family and that I needed that prayer.
Know that you are all sincerely in my prayers. Please take it easy for a few days, enjoy Boo and let your body heal. I think God gives us the ability to heal much faster mentally sometimes because we are believers, but our bodies still have to catch up.
You are in my prayers sweet friend.
Ashley, I’m so sorry about the loss of your baby. I’m so very glad to hear that you feel like your family is at peace about what happened. But it is okay to greive too. Sounds like God is giving you that peace that is unexplainable in a difficult situation. I will pray that you heal physically and emotionally, and get back to doing “something awesome”! <3 Much love!! (and thank you for sharing this publicly, I'm sure there is a degree of difficulty there too, but we're here to support ya!)
So sorry f or your loss. I too experienced this in b/t my to kids. Take your time to heal so you can try again soon if you want.
Oh Ashley,
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. I also lost a baby at the beginning of this year. Angie Smith wrote an amazing faith-based book about the dance of joy and grief called *I Will Carry You.* She has been there, and her perspective and Scriptures were so pertinent and uplifting. She really lets you grieve and progress…it was so helpful! You will be in my prayers as you grieve your littlest one. I wish I could sit with you and cry together and give you a big hug!
I’m so sorry for your loss. ((hugs))
I’m so sorry for your lOSS. I don’t know that I would be as strong as you. I’m glad you and your family have found peace with this sad event.
That baby would have been received with so much love. Praise God that you are able to love your family even more and haven’t become bitter.
I am so sorry. Praying that God will carry you through this difficult time.
bless your heart. you’re family is in my prayers.
you are an inspiration in that you’ve accepted such heartache as God’s will for you. i know it’s harder said than done to have faith in trouble times, but it is also that very faith that has always gotten me through the valleys. hugs to you! He will take care of you in His perfect way.
btw…the quote in that book was perfection!
Psalms 30:5
“…weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.”
This is one of my favorite scriptures to dwell on during times of heartache. It seemed fitting especially given the recent experience you about your dad. Wishing you a good recovery, both physically and emotionally. 🙂
I’m so sorry for your loss…! Big hug xxx
I´m sorry for your loss! The words your father lived after have stick to me and I try to live like that. I always thought I was a positive personality but I have realized that I have hard times living up to it. When life seems bad I now thinking:
Choose joy.
Isn´t it amazing how you have spread the words through the planet all the way to a little family in Sweden. Thank´s for that and thanks for the inspiration you are.
Hugs from Sweden
I am so sorry for your loss. Having just lost my own baby last week I can understand somewhat what you feel. I found sharing my story helped – & then hearing the stories of other women generous enough to share them helped too. That quote your Mother sent has resonated with me. If only I could be so accepting. You, your family & your little baby are in my thoughts xx
No words….. just a great hug and a prayer for you all.
Im so sorry for your loss Ashley. Best wishes to you and your family.
Oh, my heart feels for you… as I, too, have lost a baby. I found amazing comfort in the image of the baby resting in my grandfather’s arms as he rocked her in heaven. And I also thanked God that she would never know fear and never have one salty tear run down her precious cheek.
Rest, my dear sweet sister… and know you are loved.
Your faith is refreshing! Your acceptance of loss reminds me of the verse, ‘And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus’. I’ve always felt that if you focus on Christ, he will direct your thoughts, your heart and actions. May you continue to trust in God and He give you that perfect peace. I love the passage that your Mom sent. I’m gonna share it with someone that I know it will be a blessing to.
I am so very sorry for your loss. I was truly heartbroken to read your update. I look forward to your stories and projects each day and I couldn’t believe what I was reading. I have never lost a child but I have had my world turned upside down in other ways and I have questioned God’s plan. I know I shouldn’t but it was hard not too for me. Please remain as positive and loving as you appear to be and take comfort in all your sisters in blogland. I am giving you a hug.
Thanks for sharing your heart. I feel your pain. I just lost my baby too 4 days ago. It was hard… 7 hours in the ER almost needing a blood transfusion was not easy. It has taken me awhile to get back to myself as well!
Ashley,
I was so excited to see you were pregnant since I was also pregnant due 1.27.
Now, i am absolutely heartbroken over your very sad news.
We went in for our 10wk ultrasound and there was no heartbeat. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since our babies life left my womb.
There is nothing any one can say or do to make things better, but this experience has strengthened my marriage and our famlly (we have 2 children, 22m and 3yrs) n the most amazing ways.
My mom (had 4 m/s) told me all the time growing up that I had 2 brothers and 2 sisters up in Heaven waiting to play with me. When I was sad, I would pray to God and tell him that I wanted them to come play now in my room…so I would play with them in prayer.
I am just now getting back to myself after almost 3 weeks of grieving, but still showing as if I am about 2 months. I can’t imagine loosing your dad and then your baby. Just keep the image in mind that your daddy is holding your sweet angel for you!
Mercy Me’s song, Homesick has been a huge help for my husband and I…I hope they can help you too.
You’re in a better place, I’ve heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I’ve rejoiced for you
But the reason why I’m broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home’s where my heart is then I’m out of place
Lord, won’t you give me strength to make it through somehow
I’ve never been more homesick than now
Help me Lord cause I don’t understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I’ll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I’m still here so far away from home
enjoy this time with your family sweet mama and know you are loved!
I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you and your family.
Thank you for sharing that excerpt from the book, I am going through a tough time in my life and it’s little things like that that I read that helps me keep focus.
oh Ashley I am so so sorry. We experienced 3 losses so I know the pain in the emptiness yet joy in the hope you are going through right now. Praying and thinking about you lots.
Oh Ashley, that news just took my breath away this morning. You are such a trooper 🙂 Staying upbeat and hopeful, my heart justs wants to give you hugg. So here goes {{{{{{{{a hugg from PA}}}}}}}}}}.
Ashley, I am sorry sorry to hear about you and your family’s loss. You have such a great attitude about it…you are in my thoughts.
Ashley, I’m so sorry for your loss. May the Lord continue to give you and your family strength, peace and comfort during these difficult times.
I am so sorry for your loss. I too have a baby that is nestled in the arms of Jesus right now. It is has been five years now, but I still miss my baby something terrible. I pray every night asking Jesus to give my baby a kiss & a tickle from mommy since I can’t do it myself.
Prayers & hugs to you!
Ashley- there are no words. I’m so sorry. Praying for your peace and happiness during such a difficult time. I know you will get through this and God’s plan will all make sense. Thinking of you!
So sorry Ashley! I too had that happen. Be strong and JUST LOVE! You are in my prayers.
xoxo Ruth
Just wanted to let you know that I have had 5 pregnancies and now we have two gorgeous daughters. You will get through this but it is hard. We lost one baby at 24 weeks. Thinking about you.
Take care of yourself, Ashley. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I love your spirit; it truly is an inspiration. Hugs, Shelley
I am so very sorry for your loss. Sending loving, heart healing thoughts your way.
oh, ashley… i am so sorry. i can imagine how you feel as we lost two babies – one between each of our three kids – but just know that your heart will indeed heal. make sure you take care of yourself. i’ll be praying for your physical and emotional recovery. god always knows the perfect plan for each of us.
……….my heart just aches for you and your family.
I just read through your new post about your trip memory jar filled with beachcombing treasures from newport. Thank goodness for boo and her ever-burning light! Kids=joy!
So sorry Ashley. I have a baby in heaven too and I know the pain. Praying for peace for you and your family.
I’m so sorry. I pray for you and your family to find peace (though it looks like you have already accepted it). I look forward to reading your blog every day. Cheryl
Ashley, I pray you will have the peace and comfort of the Father. What losses you have experienced recently and what an opportunity to cling to the cross. May God continue to strengthen and restore you deeply, in ways only He can.
So sorry what you are going through, but you seem to have the most positive outlook I have seen in a long time and that’s great! I’ll be thinking about you and family while you get through these rough times. You are an inspiration!
We are not made for see our sons death. I lost my father and is a terrible emotion. Feel like we do not have breath to continue living. But I have hope to see my father in the new word that Jehova promise to all creatures in the planet earth. In Saint John 5:28, 29 said that all death will wake up. This give me strength to wait that day, very soon.
Sonia Noemi from Puerto Rico
I’m so sorry! I went through it last fall, not fun, but there is a reason. Hugs to you and your family!
i don’t even know what to say…except that i send you a cyber hug full of love, healing, and strength. much, much aloha to you and your family.
I know I am basically going to repeat of what everyone else has said, but I am so sorry! Everything happens for a reason and God works in mysterious ways. You are in my thoughts and prayers! Boo will get a sibling some day and she will be a great big sister:)
I love your positive energy you always bring to all your posts, even this one! You are wonderful:)
I am so sorry, It’s a hard time. In France, we say “Things very hard will help you to be stronger” I think this not a good translation but that use to help me when I had hard time like that so I hope it will be the same for you and your family.
my eyes instantly swelled with tears when i read this. i am so very sorry for your loss.
So sad. I hope you and your family find peace. I hope that you recover well, Ashley, and I’m sending a hug for all of you.
Claire
So sorry for your loss! I too lost my baby at three months back in 2005! It is true that things happen for a reason and that God will only give you what he believes that you can handle. After the loss of my sweet little one … I wasn’t sure if I was goign to conceive and I did … with twins! What a delight and miracle. It was a long journey thorugh my pregnancy and I was gracious for my blessings. May God be with you and your beautiful family.
I’m so sorry.
I’m so sorry for you guys. It sounds like you have a wonderful outlook though.
Oh Ashley . . . I’m so sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
I’m so sorry, too Ashley, we’re all here for you.
Oh my gosh, I am so very sorry. Beyond words. You are in my thoughts, and absolutely in my prayers. God bless you are and of course your little angel is save in Jesus’ arms.
Blessings,
Sheila
sorry about your loss, will keep you in our prayers
I am so sorry to read this. I’ve cheked in here before, but never commented before. you have been on my heart since I first saw this yesterday, and in my prayers.
Oh no, I’m so sorry to read that you’ve lost your little one! Thank you so much for sharing this with us. I think you’ve helped a lot of people today. Thank you and take care of yourself.
I am very sorry for your loss, and for having to put on hold the dreams that had begun to take root. I wish you peace and healing.
Soooo very sorry for your loss. (((HUGS))) to you. I’m positive that your sharing will help someone else 🙂 Blessings & Peace to your family
Hello,
I have been following your blog for a few months now and I definitely enjoy when the lilblueboo email comes into my inbox. You are a true inspiration!!!! I do not know how you do all that you do. I love crafts, art, etc but I just try, I am not talented like you are. Daily I am shocked by what you create and come up with. Your little girl is blessed to have you as a mommy, you totally rock!!!! I have two doughters myself. I just wanted to tell you how awesome you are and how much of an inspiration you are. Keep doing what you do. I also want to say I am so sorry for your loss. God does work in mysterious ways and he has a plan for all of us. Thank you for sharing your story, your life, and all your creativity. Have a wonderful week and thank you!
xoxox Tara
I’m so, so sorry.
There is no way a stranger can share or lessen a loss, but I can and do wish for peace for you and your family.
My breath was taken away by your post. Thank you for your honesty. I wasn’t going to comment, but after reading all the comments I realized that sometimes it makes things feel a little better when you are not alone. I had two miscarriages between my second and third child. Two in a row was a tough pill to swallow. I had to really keep my mind from going the places the doctor was going. “Advanced maternal age” was not a good thing for me to hear at the time. I told him I wasn’t done having children so enough of that talk. I like him as a doctor, but was kind of happy when he didn’t make it on time for the birth of my third and the nurse ended up delivering my baby. Although not religious myself, I do believe things happen for a reason. There is a plan. Thoughts to you and your amazing family.
Gosh, I’m so sorry! The same thing happened to me when I was 11 weeks. I have two awesome children to be thankful and grateful for. I love your positive attitude and am thinking and praying for you and your family. Take care of yourself 🙂
Hi Ashley,
I am sorry about your loss. Please read Jen’s blog sometime…I think you will find it comforting to read the stories there. Here is the link..
I just had a miscarriage last month. This would have been my second baby. I did IVF. So we are 25k in the hole with no baby. I understand your sadness. I am so happy to have my daughter. She brings me joy every day (even when she is being a pill).
I’m so very sorry for your loss. Much love to you and your family.
I am so sorry for your loss. I just got done reading the book “heaven is for real”. There is a chapter about the baby the family lost and is now in heaven!
I am so sorry to hear of your loss, Ashley and family! I have 3 beautiful children but have also lost 4 babies due to miscarriage. It is a pain deeper than I could have imagined. We would have loved to have a bigger family but now need to be content with what God has given us and cherish the ones we have. We too are comforted that our babies are in heaven with their great-grandparents. Thank you for sharing such a personal part of your life with us.
Ashley, I’m so sorry about your loss.
Sorry for your loss..I will drink some diet coke in your honor-just trying to put a sliver of a smile on your face during this difficult time. be well
ashley…i’m so sorry for your loss…i, too, have been through a miscarriage…and what a blessing your lil’ boo has to have a faithful family to teach her to find the blessings in the midst of heartache…
i’m not sure if you have read the book “heaven is for real” but, it brought me great joy this summer when i read it…it’s told from the point of view of a 4 year old who has a near death experience…his dad’s a minister…and it’s a quick, easy read…and i think you’d love it, too…
take care…you are in my prayers… tiffany
Ashley-
I’m so sorry you had to write this post. I had to write one a little over a year ago and it’s just awful. Be kind to yourself and slow in recovery. I rushed and am paying the price now…..embracing pain has never been my forte.
Love from Santa Barbara
xoxo
Hi,
I know how it feels…I have been there thrice…but everytime I cheered myself saying God will definately give me the best…and truly today I have a 3 year Best in my life…
Have Faith…
So sorry. Do be gentle with yourself and move slowly through the time . It seems to help one heal… Sometimes one never “get’s over’ a loss of a child,
after having ‘lost’ four little ones, i have to say, i don’t want to ‘get over’ them. They are in my heart forever…I am not sure one should ever ‘get over’ a loss.