Chemotherapy side effects are the topic o’ the day. First, thank you so much for all the sweet thoughts and encouragement yesterday. Gicela helped watch Boo most of the day out in the studio and I spent the day sleeping after I got back from chemo:
I only slept about 2 hours last night. My body was just wired and restless. I felt like every nerve in my legs and arms were going crazy. I ended up being able to sleep a little on the couch last night with my feet tucked tightly in the cushions and with a cool-feeling lightweight down comforter. And I was so itchy! I felt like Boo when she says that she “itches, but the itch keeps itching back!” I took three showers from last night until this morning trying to get rid of the “toxic” smell that I felt kept coming out of my pores. Even my pee smelled toxic. My joint and muscle pain went away this morning.
I DID remember to take the “take or die” drug this morning at 7am sharp and JUST took my 2nd dose a few minutes ago. The nurse’s scare tactics worked. Today’s chemo was only a few hours but my legs were so restless I couldn’t relax in the chair….I just sat leaning forward. I can’t even remember what I got except for Etoposide which I lovingly refer to as the “hair loss drug” …..but I do know they gave me Benadryl with my pre-meds to stop the itching. It worked a little. I’m going to try to get scheduled to have a port put in my chest before next week’s chemo and blood draws because both my arms are so sore and tender now.
Boo is acting out today. While I slept and she was playing in the studio with Gicela….. she cut every thread from every machine…..which only makes more work for Gicela tomorrow. I haven’t felt well enough to make it to daily prayer circle at school with her the last few months and that was her reason for doing it…..I guess she thinks when I don’t take her to school I’m sitting around here sewing. I tried to explain to her that I am just resting when I don’t take her. My MIL is taking her to a movie tomorrow and my mother flies in on Friday for a few weeks so that will help tremendously.
My appetite has been really good this afternoon. I can’t lose anymore weight. My friend Mandy brought me Tabouli from Costco which has been my “go to” snack right now. Everything they do to me is only getting me closer to being better……and as I always say, at least it’s not Boo.
My HCG levels were a huge drop this week too: around 500….but I can’t remember the actual number. That’s progress!
Yael says
All I can say is you are a huge inspiration. You are so very strong!
Hugs from Israel.
Adrienne says
You’re AMAZING! That’s all I can say. Much love and healing prayers daily for you from central IL. xo
Evelene Sterling says
Aw so glad you have an appetite! Many hugs and prayers to you, Boo and Mr LBB.
Alisha Lopez says
Hang in there Ashley….
Boo needs an outlet, like a journal, for all those things she is feeling. This darn disease effects everyone involved.
Maybe one day, have a prayer circle with the LIL staff before Boo shuffles off to school, her own special prayer circle!
Hang in there hun!!!
Jennifer Goldberg says
Love this idea. You should definitely do this Ash.
Jennifer Goldberg says
Thanks for the update. Glad you got some rest today and felt like eating. I think all of this will take time for Boo, she is probably just acting out in general, upset that this is happening to her mommy. I bet things will get better with your mom in town helping out. Continue to take care of yourself.
Karen says
Well it is good that you have an appetite and you were able to get some sleep and not feeling all that soreness in your joints.
Love your spirit Ashley, bless you.
sammi says
Ill go to prayer with Boo…it must be hard for her. And even harder for you to see her struggle. I pray for peace for both of you. I think you guys need a few books to read together about Mommies who are sick but working to get better!
Shannon says
Just remember to keep wearing those leggings. Ryan really likes them. He told me 😉 Sending healing thoughts, strength and prayers.
PS-The wiggly toes can be from neuropathy. It’s from the chemo. Mine did it too. I think they can give you something to settle the nerves down if I remember right.
Emilie says
Such a talent. Chosing joy I mean. It seeps through your words even when describing the unpleasant parts.
Incredible.
Debbie Brewer says
Big cheer for that HCG drop. Do you like hummus? I was just thinking that it has a lot of protein in it. (Way better than protein drinks!)
Have a good night.
Debbie (your desert cheerleader)
Meredith says
Hi Ms. Ashley! I have been a longtime reader of your blog and I just wanted to tell you that when I was 11 (I’m 15 now) I had osteosarcoma. I took methotrexade as one of my chemos and yes, it does smell horrendous especially pee. But, unfortunately it is necessary to go to the bathroom every hour. I always used to spray febreeze right before I went to the bathroom which helped it smell better (which to this day I cannot smell febreeze without bad memories). I’ve heard some people put a blue jolly rancher under their tounge and that helps to. I had a port also. It will save you a lot of trouble as methotrexade travels to open wounds! Ports are your friend. I’m praying for you everyday and I hope Boo will understand as much as she can and should as you are on this journey. xoxo
Sandra says
I agree with the suggestion to use a nice scent to cover up the methotrexate smell. If you can get some natural stuff that isn’t spray (not good for your lungs), give it a try. I also agree that a port is good. It will keep your veins healthier. Just be sure to keep your port clean and flushed.
Twenty years ago I went through the same chemo as you, for a similar cancer. I have been thinking of you quite a bit lately, and remembering what it was like to be a young mother facing such a tough illness — especially during the holiday season. (My daughter was an infant when I was diagnosed.) Please know that there will be bad days and good days, and enjoy your good days as much as possible.
Shannon says
I agree that Boo needs a place to put her thoughts and feelings. A journal is a great idea. Even if she only draws how she feels because she is still so young to be able to put them into words all the time! And the suggestion to have a special prayer circle at home is a great one! I pray that God wraps you in His grace, peace and love. With Him we are able to get through all things. Blessings to you and your family in this Christmas Season and into the New Year!!
Michele LIttlefield says
I wish I was Samantha Stevens on Bewitched & I could wiggle my nose & make your cancer get to kickin’ rocks. You’re an amazing lady & you really really have touched alot of people & you have amazing prayer power going on.
I hope you have a restful night. :0)
Alice H says
I’m here from Under the Sycamore. I have been reading your blog for a few weeks now. You are an inspiration. I am so sorry for all you are going through. But you make me want to be a better person. A better mother. And you give me the want I need to Choose Joy. I pray for you and your family daily. Merry Christmas to you and yours.
Deb says
Thinking of you each day and sending good thoughts and prayers your way. I look forward to your post so I can see how you are feeling each day…thank you for sharing such a personal journey. Stay strong!
Monique says
I had forgotten about the itching. I would have to go lie down and force myself to relax to make it kind of stopped.
You have got to get a port. i can’t imagine doing chemo with out it. Also, if you haven’t already start asking for small needles when they have to draw blood, it hurts a lot less.
Glad to hear your good report. Keep up the good work and don’t forget your only job is to get well!
Amber L says
I am so sad Boo doesn’t understand. It must be hard for you and her. I hope you feel better soon so you can make it to a prayer circle. I am glad your mom is coming again! And that your numbers are down!!! Can they give you anything else for the itch? Don’t laugh, but I bought one of those old wood back scratchers! It is so dry here and I can’t reach my back. It is so nice! Great that you got some sleep! Hope you get more rest tonight!
Kristen says
Prayed for you this morning Ashley. Glad you are recovering from the long day. I love your description of the smell (yesterday’s post). Had to read it to my husband about the nuclear reactor, goat and great imagination. You are inspiring and I love reading your posts.
Rebecca says
Hey there, I just popped onto your blog several months back following a link to make leather bracelets or somesuch. I LOVE many of your crafty ideas (and my kids’ and I have made the leather cuffs for gifts). I am sorry to read about your treatment and cancer journey. But, I have a similar story. In 2010 I went through chemo and lost my hair and felt terrible…but things are good now! Love, love your positive attitude! Some days are harder than others, that’s for sure.
And really, hair is over-rated. It is SO easy to get up and go with no hair!!
Please, please email me if you need any extra support. Stay strong!!
xoxo
Rebecca
Michelle Fox says
Sorry Boo is having a hard time. I’m so happy to hear your HCG levels have dropped too. You’re so brave and taking this so well. Such a huge inspiration. Thoughts, prayer and hugs!!!
vicky says
I’m so sorry Boo is having a hard time. Our childrens hospital has a program for sick kids that you and Boo could adapt for yourselves. Its a bead program where each type of procedure has a bead to represent it. Here is a link to the program,
Unfortunately they don’t have the list of procedures and matching beads on the website. If you are interested I could scan it and send it to you. I am working on my baby’s beads. She is in the PICU right now recovering from her second liver transplant. She is so young I am hoping the beads will be a tactile way for her to understand how very much she has been through.
Sandra says
I’ve often thought that there ought to be programs like this for kids whose parent or sibling are going through cancer treatments. I know my niece’s school was not at all helpful or sympathetic when her dad had pancreatic cancer. It was during her second grade year and she had a difficult time learning.
Random reader says
I am not one to comment on blogs. I have been following yours for some time now. I do not have a creative bone in my body, but LOVE to read your tutorials and see all the neat things you create. It is very rare that someone is right and left brain gifted. Praying for you and your family during this challenging time. Hope it passes as quickly and as easily as possible for you all.
BTW – I do not know how you find the energy to continue blogging. It is truly amazing!
Cathy T. says
Hi, I just stumbled upon your blog. I think I started out at Pinterest, but I’m not sure (it’s been a long day). I love it and look forward to reading more.
Thank you for sharing your story. You have an amazing attitude and it reminds me of someone I love and miss everyday. We lost our wonderful friend to esophageal cancer in April. Sadly, he found out way too late and was already terminal stage 4. He was only 46. He had a positive attitude throughout his battle and he would always tell us “Truly live today, love today and enjoy every moment. Strive for tomorrow to be even better”. I see your “Choose Joy” and think of his saying and him. I now have your “Choose Joy” button on my desktop as a reminder.
On May 19, 2012 I will once again be walking in Relay For Life. Something that I’ve done in years past, but last year was the first year that I was walking for someone that didn’t win the fight. It’s a long night and at times it’s hard to get through. but it’s nothing compared to the fight you and so many others are going through. I (and a lot of others) will be walking for you this May.
Keep up the good fight and “Strive to make tomorrow even better”
Leigh Anne says
Much love to you too! (((HUGS))) from Texas 🙂
Jodie says
So glad to hear your count is coming down! It is working! Fingers crossed the itchiness goes away!
Bev says
I am so, so glad you had an appetite today and got to rest. Maybe if we all showed up to prayer circle with Boo…
Kathy O says
Thank you for taking the time to post Ashley. Let Boo know your prayer circle is very big right now and your many friends are all saying lots of prayers. You have become a blog sister to so many. I pray that you feel well for the holiday weekend.
Kathy
Harmony says
YAY! For a big drop in the HCG levels!!
I don’t know if I would have had the heart to tell her my uterus had been already taken out either, if I was you. Or really, I don’t know if I would have had the heart to hear myself say it. This might just be too personal, or maybe something you aren’t wanting to talk about yet…but if you still have your ovaries you could have a surrogate in the future. Just a thought. Then again, there are many children already out there, and that will be out in the world soon, that need loving homes.
Cuppy Walker says
Dear Ashley, You are on my mind daily, as is Boo. So hard for her to understand, I admire your continued positive spirit. A hard time I know, but you always look on the bright side. Many of us are thinking of you and praying for you. Glad your numbers were down. hang in there, God is with you. love, Cuppy
zhing says
you’re mighty amazing and you’re in our christmas prayers this year! keep up the good progress!!
Fernando says
) asta e nimic pe langa ce ni se intampla noua in Dr tr. Severin. Aici e plin de rromi care nu numai ca ne inrjua, scuipa, arata semne obscene, striga dupa noi EMO sau alte chestii stupide, dar cand ne prind mai putini decat ei intr-un loc unde nu prea e politie pun mana pe ce apuca si ne iau la bataie. Si oricum politia nu prea le-ar face nimic ca sunt minori (ne-am primit replica asta de fiecare data cand mergeam sa le zicem politistilor ce se intampla). Si se mai intreaba lumea ce avem cu rromii . Ce au EI cu noi? si nu sunt numai ei. Si localnicii se uita ciudat la noi si cand trec pe langa noi comenteaza . De ce nu pot sa isi vada de treaba lor in manelele lor si sa lase lumea in pace? Si aici e aceeasi problema cu profii. Desi am printre cele mai mari medii din clasa, o groaza de proiecte si activitati extra-scolare, tot nu primesc avantaje ca si ceilalti colegi. M-am plafonat asa de mult incat ma multumesc doar sa le arunc cate o replica sa le inchid gura si sa le afisez un zambet ironic. Nu mai prea avem ce face. Chiar si cu campania asta, nu o sa se rezolve nimic. Romanii sunt niste oameni conservatori si nu accepta nimic nou, nimic diferit. Dovada, clasa politica votata cu atata incredere de dragii nostri compatrioti, prostiti si fraieriti pe fata de nesimtitii aia burtosi care isi tripleaza conturile in fiecare luna si noua ne zic ca nu au de unde sa ne plateasca salariile. Tara asta ar trebui schimbata de cineva din afara pentru ca oamenii de aici nu au minte destula sa si-o schimbe singuri si aia care pot, sunt mancati de hienele astea de aici sau se plafoneaza pentru ca deja se satura sa se lupte cu toti.
Beth Morrow says
So glad you are doing so well.. I know it’s really hard to keep everything going that you have on your plate, but remember kids are resilient and this is only for a season and Boo will be fine and rest is part of this healing so no guilt. Sorry for sounding like another mother. Did you know I have an Ashley about your age with a 4 year old little girl, so you see you just hit close to home.
I love your “mother’s” heart.
Thanks for the update and remember we are praying for you!
Love ya,
Beth
Laura says
Thinking of you and your family.
Merry Christmas.
Ashley J says
You don’t know me but I think you may be one of the most amazing people I’ve never met! I found your blog about a year ago and couldn’t get over how amazing you were then, but after reading about your cancer battle I even more blown away by your attitude. Your family and friends are incredibly blessed to have you in their lives.
I’ll be praying for you, Ash!
Twins Squared says
Thank you for taking the time to let us know how you are doing. You are such an ispiration. I hope that you feel well for Christmas.
Nicole Dein says
Ashley,
I don’t even know how I stumbled upon your blog, but I am so happy I did. I just spent 3 hours reading your blog and catching up on what you have been going through. (I know it sounds creepy but you are an amazing writer and I just got sucked in) You are amazingly strong and THANK YOU for sharing your journey with the world! You are added to my prayers and your positive outlook on life has made me think about my own life and how I can be more positive! I CHOOSE JOY! Thank you and may God bless you and your family!
Megan says
Thank you for updating, I’m so glad to hear the good news about the HCG levels. Continuing to pray!
Maria says
So glad you had a chance to blog today. I look forward to your story telling about your experiences and reading the words of encouragement your readers post ( and how cute is Meredith? – with her “good to know” advice at a sweet 15 years old).
I am sorry Boo doesn’t understand – my little likes to put “feeling notes” in a piggy bank and also writes and doodles in a sparkly journal (you should see her interpretation of “mad mommy”)…lastly …
woohoo for lower hcg levels!!!
Team Ashley!!
XOXO
Julie says
You can do this. Boo will get through it. Kids are resilient! We are rooting for you……..
Heather G. says
Hooray for HCG levels being down!! Big hugs to you and Sienna. Praying for you both.
Cat says
Thanks so much for sharing what you are going thru ashley…you continue to inspire me — in even more ways then before you got sick. So sending you all the well wishes and healing thoughts i can every day.
Cathy
wendyz says
Progress Rules…so, lets go with that. Hugs, you. xoxoxoxo
bindu says
big smiles here 🙂 🙂 🙂 so relieved and thankful to God. we had very specific prayers today and you know how overwhelming yet calm it feels when prayers are answered word-to-word?!?!
and lil miss sweetheart Boo … i am glad she was able to vent it out 😀 😀 😀
Hang in there Ashley … hugs
Megan says
Love to you, Ash, yesterday, today and tomorrow! Thinking of you (and hoping the itch goes away…eeek!) I’m glad your momma is on her way to you.. it’s so nice that the grandmas are there to help ‘lil S. Big hugs for you and B and S and D (as in Diesel) and all your other single-initaled peeps 🙂
xo – Megan, Jason, Jax and Olivia… who, just so you know, rocks her Choose Joy bracelet to preschool each day.
shannon says
I have been “lurking” on your blog for several months now and all i can say is a huge WOW. I was captivated by your awesome tutorials & patterns, but more so by your writing. I have also had cancer (at the age of 33), but my time with it can never compare to yours…and I’m a pretty tough chick too :). My son was 7 when I had cancer, and 8 years later it’s all very vague to him. Kids are so resilient. Boo will be fine, the foundation you have given her guarantees it! You are daily in my thoughts & prayers. Btw, benadryl causes restless legs. I was a complete disaster by my last chemo because i needed massive amounts of it before each treatment. Good luck & God bless you & your loved ones, Shannon
tone hultmann says
praying for fast recovery and praying for your daughter, I know my girls would have acted in the same way if I was being sick, the world as she knows it isn’t that way anymore… You are such an inspiration!
jen @ tatertots and jello says
Sending you love and hugs Ashley!!! Been thinking about you for the last two days.
love you!!
xoxoxoxox
Jen
Teri Wendt says
So glad your levels dropped down, such great news. I am praying for you Ashley and marvel at your spirit. God is truly dwelling in you and you are a living testimony to His grace and mercy. I just know that He is carrying you every step of this journey that you are on. May you and your family have a very Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year !!
Love and prayers,
Teri
Valerie Nelson says
Ashley, your strength and courage are inspiring! It brings tears to my eyes! Praying for you today!! May you rest in the comfort of knowing you are being lifted in prayer! Our God is a God of healing! <3
isabel says
I send you kisses from Paris – France.
I read your story and i’m very proud of you. You’re a BIG lady !!!!
Donata says
You’re such a brave girl! Always in my prayers,wonderful thing that levels are going down…I wish you and all your family a wonderful happy Christmas and a marvelous new year.Wishing you all the best! XOXO from Italy
RobyGiup says
So happy for the HCG levels drop and the appetite!!! And also for the coming of your mother and for having so many people around you that love you! Now just try to rest, God stays close to you, we are all praying for that.
HUGS
Roberta
Abby says
Praying for you Ashley! May those Hcg levels continue to drop and may God give you strength and comfort.
Southern Gal says
yay for low HcG levels! So glad your mom is coming to spend time with you and Boo. Nothing like having Mama around when we’re not feeling our best. Rest. Eat. And I like the idea of Alisha Lopez. Your own prayer circle before Boo heads to school. Blessings.
Annabelle says
I come to your website everyday to check up on you and your progress. It’s like you’re an old friend who lives just around the corner. Your beautiful spirit really shines through and I feel privileged to “know” you. I send happy thoughts your way from Montreal and hope some of them reach you.
PS (about the hair schmair post….I think you look gorgeous either way. If anyone can rock the bald head look, it’s you!)
Jenny Ronimous says
I read your site every day and am glad to hear you have your appetite back. If you still itch after today, ask them to talk to an allergy/immunology doctor about the max dose and best delivery method. I was in getting my allergy shot yesterday and there was a doctor there talking to him about the those things for a child. It broke my heart and made me think of you being happy it was you instead of Boo. God bless you and your wonderful spirit.
Chris says
Sending you love and prayers from Idaho. You are so brave and generous in sharing your story and facing cancer without fear. I need only think of your example if I am feeling a little overwhelmed. Thank you. Merry Christmas to you and your family.
Grace Hauth says
Ash, your HCG levels, yay!!!!!!! Almost there!!!! I tell people your story and they are amazed by your strength and courage. You are inspiring people that you don’t even know about. We love you to pieces.
Kash says
We love you and are sayiong one continuous prayer until your levels are “0” and stay there! Glad your Mom is coming out – wish I were there to help!!
cynthia says
Happy to hear the positive news. HUGZ!!!!
Glenda Potter says
Hi Ashley,
Just found your blog…God has a way of directing us exactly where we should go and I think he wanted me to be praying for you.
I have have breast cancer and chemo and I certainly can relate; however, I was 52 and not as young as you. I’m doing great by the way…”thank you Jesus!”‘
I mentioned to the doctor that I couldn’t sleep and was very restless and she said the chemo does that to you and she gave me Ambien. Let me tell you it was a life saver. Please let the doctors know ANY issue you are having no matter how small…they can help with that.
I live in Riegelwood, NC, 22 miles west of Wilmington, so you struck a chord with me.
God bless you and your family this Christmas season and know that I will be praying for you at least daily and I know that He has it all under control!
Glenda Potter
B. says
So I think you are ABSOLUTELY amazing! Continue to choose joy everyday, all day!
Tami D. in Ohio says
Continued prayers for you and your family — Great news on the HCG levels! May you have continued good news throughout this process. (((((lots of hugs)))))!!!!
Kristy says
So happy to hear such happy news from you today! I ‘m glad that you are feeling well–and hungry! Thanks for sharing your life with us and for having such a fabulous outlook on life. Merry Christmas to you!
kelly says
Let me start by saying…You are such an inspiration! I too lost my dad (54 completely heathly) a year and a half ago while working out of town to a heart attack. I know your pain and the hole you feel at times. i loved reading about your dad’s “isms”. My dad was so full of advice and wisdom and had a saying for everything, we also called them dave-isms. A little over a year after he passed I had a miscarriage. I wanted his advice, his wisdom, his love, his support and most of all his hugs. But i could hear him and i knew what he would say to me. I think i am very lucky to have had a father who shared so much with me that although he isnt hear, I know exactly what he would have said. From reading i feel your dad was very similar. When I start feeling sorry for myself, i remember i only had my father here for 30 years of my life but he gave me so much in that short time. Possible more than a lot of fathers do that live to be very old. I will stop rambling now:) I remember during my miscarriage i actually had an empty sack, they were looking to see if it was molar. Which i had absoultly no idea what that meant at the time. I remember thinking i wanted to stop doing everything that was “extra”. No need for my craft room anymore. But you have chosen the very opposite you continue to do all the things that you love and are able to. And i find that to be truly inspirational!! You are a women with incredible strength! Choose Joy is something I will hold onto for the rest of my life. Thank you for truly inspiring me to Choose Joy in every situation!! You are in my thoughts constantly:) Kelly
lisa jack says
Praying for you … will include sweet boo on that list!
Megan says
Glad to hear your counts are better. I’m praying for you!
Katy Moss says
Merry Christmas, Ashley, to you and your family and your Lil Blue Boo family. I pray for you daily. The words “tidings of comfort and joy” keep popping into my head from a Christmas carol, so I thought I’d share them with you. So I’m sending tidings of comfort and joy to you, Ashley! 🙂
Taryn Blake says
Your inspiration and positive attitude are infectious! I wish I could bottle it up and carry it around with me. Your faith and strength are incredible as well. I read daily to see your updates. Hang in there! Prayers to you and your fam and I hope you have a wonderful holiday.
Sydney says
Hang in there Ashley and keep those spirits up! You are a real trooper. God Bless you and your family.
katie r says
praying for you (and fam). thanks for sharing. merry christmas
Jesse says
You are amazing! Simply amazing…. I’ll be saying some extra prayers for Boo this week. 😉
Michelle says
I have been laughing for the past two days about the goat and nuclear reactor analogy, and I shared it with my husband, too. Glad your mom will be out to see you tomorrow, and we continue to pray for you. Have a wonderful Christmas!
Terri says
Remember always, one day closer to all better. Alot of people are sending love, concern and prayers. You are lucky to have that support. Keep smiling!
Cindy Click says
So glad to hear your levels have come down. It’s a validation this “toxic stuff” is working! I can just picture Boo with a pair of scissors and attacking each thread, like she wants to attack this disease that’s taking mom’s attn from her. I so understand it, I’m sure you do too (but maybe for awhile, sharp objects should be confiscated) You’re in my prayers and I so wish I lived closer so I could help you physically. For now, this “Okie” is sending hugs from afar. Hope tomorrow is better.
Cindy
Ruby says
Ashley I think of you and Boo every day. I have printed some of your art and clipped them to my bulletin board that hangs over my art table in my studio. First of all, I love your art and it is so inspiring but now every time I sit at my work table I see your art and say a little prayer for you. And, I do a lot of art!!
Meredith M. says
Hang in there! I wish my Leah and I could come play with Boo for a bit. Our girls would be very sassy together I am sure and they even have the same lady bug crocs. I am sure they would have a blast. Stay brave! My prayers are always being sent up for you and I know God hears and honors them.
Jennifer J says
Ashley, here is my two cents worth: Do the prayer circle at home with Boo. Show her your live feed, and how many people are aware of her, and your situation. Maybe even get out a map and let her put dots on it for where all these people are from. I am sure that everyone who knows about you is either praying or sending out good thoughts on your behalf. Get her a journal without lines. Get somebody to find or make some stickers about feelings – words or faces. If at all possible, do journal time together – you can add a few words (of hope, sympathy, understanding, etc) to her entry, or draw a little doodle on it. Might become the best part of her day. My testimony to you is that Heavenly Father hears and answers prayers. And that the Holy Ghost is always available to give you and your loved ones comfort and peace.
phalloeun says
Oh Ashley, I am so sorry things are tough right now. Especially seeing the frustrations from Boo and not being able to do much about it. I know it must break your heart. We will hold you and Boo dearly in our prayers.
Naomi says
Hi Ashley!!
I just wanted to send you some good energy from Italy (I have already been doing it mentally but now I wanted you to know it…). I don’t remember how I bumped into your website bur since I read it for the first time I became an addict… It’s good to have a break in the middle of the day (I have a 4 month old baby that’s really demanding) and read some of your thoughts and I’m really glad that you share it with the world… It gives me energy and hope. I know you’re gonna come out of this wonderfully stronger!!!
A lot of “auguri” from southern Italy (good things, vibe and energy!!!)
Lots of love,
Naomi
Linda L says
Praying for you and your family Ashley!1 Don’t be mad at Boo. It is natural for kids her age to act out when under emotional duress. They don’t know what to do with all those “feelings”! You concentrate on getting better……….that’s what she really needs! All this shall pass…………Christmas blessings!!!!
Beth says
Hi Ashley,
I have been reading about you and your story for a while now. You are in my thoughts and you are truly and inspiration for strength and courage. I wanted to suggest something for your restless legs, but i just released you posted this before Christmas, so many the problem has resolved. My Grandpa used to get restless legs (though not from any chemotherapy, just age so this may not work) and he would but a bar of soap unwrapped in his bed while he slept. You can use any soap except DOVE (it has too much lotion). His doctor didn’t know why this worked, but it did for him and many of his friends with the same issue. I just thought I would share this information because sometimes everything you try doesn’t work so you have to try something new (and maybe a little bit crazy).
Thank you for posting about this and for your amazing craftiness. You have inspired me to make more things around the house and have given me great ideas to do with my daughter when she gets a little bit older (i loved watching the shopping video from Old Navy!)
I hope this helps!
-Beth