I used to take my camera everywhere. To capture everything. But now I’m finding that the more I leave my camera behind, the more I see…and the more I remember. And like Annie Dillard puts it:
…my own shutter opens…
Remember when we were limited to 24 exposures on a roll? This summer a man asked me to take a photo of his family in front of a waterfall and I started clicking away until I realized in horror that his camera was a film camera. I probably used up half of the roll on that one shot. I wasn’t really paying attention to the shot I was getting either.
The difference between the two ways of seeing is the difference between walking with and without a camera. When I walk with a camera I walk from shot to shot, reading the light on a calibrated meter. When I walk without a camera, my own shutter opens, and the moment’s light prints on my own silver gut. When I see this second way I am above all an unscrupulous observer.
-Annie Dillard, Pilgrim at Tinker Creek
You missed that. Right now, you are missing the vast majority of what is happening around you. You are missing the events unfolding in your body, in the distance, and right in front of you.
–Alexandra Horowitz, On Looking
I miss the excitement of getting the film developed, and I miss the feeling of only having to take a single photo. I want my photo albums to be smaller and thinner. It doesn’t mean I did less, it means I felt more.
Maybe another pinhole camera? I loved those when I was young. I remember those moments because I had one piece of photo paper and I wanted it to count.
I too miss the simplicity of being limited to 24 pictures to a roll… Now every time I take a picture I take a hundred to find a good one! 🙂 It’s exhausting!
Perfect. My brother in law takes so many pictures but misses all of the moments. 🙁