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Do I Get a Cookie?

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I was totally prepared this morning…..there was going to be no wonky bra on today’s CT scans. I wore a sports bra top….you know, just in case I felt like doing some yoga while I drank my barium sulfate.

I hope the radiologist notices when he does the comparisons of past scans: oh look, finally…she got rid of the wonky underwire. Because I’m pretty sure they pay attention to those kind of things, right?

elevator photo opp
(when the doors opened the woman standing there thought I was taking a photo of her)

My CT scan got scheduled pronto and Dr. L asked them to call him with the results so we can meet again late this afternoon. That. is. efficient.

This was my breakfast. They usually let me drink the Crystal Light version…..I was not happy about this. I am a very competitive drinker and I knew this was not going to go down as fast as the “jungle juice” version.

 

Then I got home and wolfed down some chicken nuggets…..and I had BBQ sauce packets leftover from my last trip to Chic-Fil-A…..score. The day is getting better and better!

 

Me: I think something’s growing back in my hip. Look how this side is bigger than this one.
Lisa: It’s probably just fat.
Me: Well, scans are scheduled for Thursday morning.
Lisa: If it turns out that it’s just fat do I get a cookie?

 

Maybe it IS just fat. I ruled out constipation by increasing my intake of Miralax all last week.  It could be just scar tissue too. Or maybe it’s my ovaries trying to come  back to life.  The possibilities are endless! I’ll let you know when I know. I’ll let you know if Lisa gets that cookie.

Happy Thursday/Monday-ish day!

I wrote over at Hey Look at Me today if you get a chance to check it out.

Oh, I ran into an old friend at the imaging center: Hi Scott! You’re the greatest friend ever for always taking Mr. T to his appointments.

The Cancer Chronicles via lilblueboo.com

 

Statistical Error

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My hair is long enough to use product in now! I get so many comments about how much darker the color is now…..um, it’s the same color as before….it’s just not long enough to add highlights to yet.

The Cancer Chronicles via lilblueboo.compublic restroom photo opp

I haven’t done a Cancer Chronicles post in a long time….because there hasn’t been much to tell.  I wrote recently about the chemotherapy putting me into menopause and how cruddy it made me feel…..and that made me decide to go on a low dose estrogen patch.  Well, my mom freaked out and called her friend who specializes in hormones and the next thing I knew I had an appointment with her. So, I’ve been on progesterone cream for about 2 weeks. It seems to be helping with all the symptoms. The great thing is….this woman has the most amazing skin…..so I asked her to prescribe me whatever she was using on her skin too.  Not sure what’s in it….but it’s making my skin look ah-mazing. [Read more…]

#losingmyhair

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Well, the movies got one scene right…..you know where the girl is brushing her hair and then realizes a huge piece has come out? Yep….that’s how it happens. At exactly the 2 week point since starting the new chemotherapy, EMA-CO, my hair is starting to fall out. It’s more like my brush gets caught on a large tangle and instead of stopping the entire tangle keeps moving and with barely any resistance at all comes out.

Losing my hair to cancer - choriocarcinoma hair loss

My entire sink was filled with hair last night as Brett watched me brush it from the bed. He kept asking “are you okay? are you sure? how much is in the sink now?” It’s just hair. I think it may have been more traumatic for him. I told my mom this morning and she said “I know, Brett told me.” And then she asked if she could have a lock as a bookmark……I told her I’d braid her up a nice tacky one. I decided to pluck my eyebrows this morning and they seemed to come out a little easier than normal. Maybe I won’t have to shave my legs soon or get a bikini wax.

When the hair starts falling out from emaco chemotherapy

I can’t stand the idea of my hair being all over the house. I put my hair in a pony tail today. I think it’s almost time to cut it all off. I’m just holding out until I’m sure it’s all going to fall out…..because I know if I shave my head before that point it won’t fall out. Almost every chemotherapy drug they gave me said HAIR LOSS as a side effect. BUT, they all said DIARRHEA too and I’ve never been so constipated in my life…..so they were wrong on that one.  I’m thinking of buying stock in an enema company.

I’m not scared of going bald. I think I’ve already let go of fear and anxiety……now I can let go of vanity.  Monks shave their head as the ultimate rejection of all things material, to let go of ego and start anew. In the military it’s a rite of passage.  I can look at it as a new start. I’m reducing “drag” on my journey.  Plus, I think humility is the most underrated virtue.

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